I Hate Being Broke

Well, it's been four weeks and I haven't seen any money from any of the freelance gigs I've done. After speaking with Brett last week on Friday I got the indication he was stalling for time. Allegedly, he claims my check was mailed out and mysteriously cashed. This after he claims we spoke before he left town. "I spoke to you and you said you got it". No, in actuality, before Brett left he and I were going over the time sheet for the hours I worked with him on the Spike TV job. Then he tells me his bank is going to look into it and asks me to forward my address to him via email. My question is why would you ask me for my mailing address again? Wouldn't your accountant retain that information for tax purposes? Brett is full of shit. If he were transparent he would be brown and the only thing that would gravitate to him are flies. He had no intentions of paying me in a timely manner. When my cell phone went dead and I needed a new one I borrowed $200 from Darryl. I don't like to borrow from friends and acquaintances. That $300 could have helped me in the past week. Especially after Bank of America charged me over $350 in overdraft fees I'm even deeper in the hole. Meanwhile, Alejandro's friend still hasn't paid us both for the work we finished back in November 2005 on his B-movie "Seepage". I'll tell you this much, he won't get us for the same bargain basement prices he got us for on the last project. This is the reason I no longer want to work in the art & design industries. BECAUSE PEOPLE DON'T WANT TO PAY YOU AFTER THE JOB IS DONE! It discourages young, talented people like my friends and I from working for individuals and small businesses. I've had it up to here with being without money. I work hard so I should be renumerated. It's only fair. I know this much, after this week I'll never be poor again!!!

Dancing wit myself (oh oh uh-oh!!!)

Yeah, this is my new headshot. The one that I have been carrying around with me. There's a hint of my personality showing through. After my photographer friend Dave took 40-something of them I decided I liked this one. He thought different but after a while he came around to my thinking. I like it and it has been getting me steady work. Just recently I shot a commercial on the LES for Axe deodorant where I was one of the principal actors. Dunno if it's going to be on televison or online so you might want to keep your eyes open for that (hint: I'm one of the guys in white). I wanted "exposure" so badly I went to film my dance segment for the contest yesterday. What was that? You didn't know I could move? Well, with the right music and shoes... This is no average run-of-the-mill dance contest. This is the "Pants off Dance off" contest on Fuse TV (airing April 18th at 11pm, check your local listings). The object was you had to strip to the music they provided -all the way to the nude. Yup, yours truly bust a move till the drawers came off! I enjoyed every minute of it and loved the enthusiasium from the crew. Granted, I know they had seen about a dozen other packages during the shoot but I made it seem like I was a professional. I'm still kind of in awe at what I did. I haven't told anyone, including my bf, Darryl. It takes guts and drive to keep your composure in front of the camera. Seeing that $200 dollars in my hand helped too. It made me realize why individuals in the adult industry are in such high demand. Yeah, I had second thoughts but I was aware that once I go Full Monty the bits would be blurred out. Before I agreed to do it I had to think about how doing something like this would affect my career. Part of being an actor or any performer for that matter is about taking chances. You sometimes have to go out on a limb to get the attention you want. Some actors have no-nudity clauses in their contracts and I respect that. Not everyone is comfortable with letting the world know what their Mama gave them. Shit, I have my own biases about me but I know what I have is beautiful to others. We all do. The human body is a beautiful thing and is only dirtied up by those who have their own personal issues regarding the matter. In fact, after I came back to the green room there was a brotha there having second thoughts. I assured him there was nothing to worry about and that there was nothing to worry about. Of course I was twice his size in build. I hope I encouraged him to go on. Hey, you only go around once!