Back at zero... again

Well, here I am. Unemployed again. No stable place to live. No certainty as to my future. I am in pain. My finances are scarce. I really don't see there being a reason to continue going on if I'm going to constantly have to scrape by. I've survived a lot this year. Much more than any other people would admit. But I continue to press on. There are only a few people who know of my plight that lending a hand but there's only so much people can do in these challenging times. If you'd told me three years ago that my boyfriend would kick me out only to move in with a close friend who took my rent money and bounced to Philly, leaving me to be evicted by the landlady I would have said you had a faulty crystal ball. But if you told me I would score a great paying job only to be terminated by the owner for alleged prostitution I would have said you have a wild imagination. Suddenly having no choice but to move in with my family out of state and refused help by friends who have known me for decades sounded like a nightmare. As I struggled to find underpaying work in the richest state I searched desperately for a position in the metro New York area. Then this year: being jumped by a gang of thugs, only to be shot in the back and the bullet left in me by a negligent faith-based hospital. But all of it hasn't been bad. I won my Unemployment appeal and Traveled to D.C. and Chicago to join my fellow ONYX brothers for some hot leather events. But who'd thought I would have been charged with a felony possession of a deadly weapon and convicted on a misdemeanor with a suspended sentence and a year's probation? But this? THIS? Losing my job, The only this keeping me here in New York and giving me some shred of hope is no longer. Even though working for DaVinci was a shitty job with very little pay and rewarding aspects I had a routine in my life. Now I find myself searching for work.